neekafat: Neek's Relationship Blues

neekafat 08.08.17	I'll update as more depressing shit pops up Friendly reminder that this is not the time to mock the amount of Coldplay
Papa Universe 08.08.17	Leonard Cohen - Steer Your Way Neil Cicierrega - T.I.M.E. Elbow - My Sad Captains AJJ - Small Red Boy
Dissonant 08.08.17	brainbombs - die you fuck
Papa Universe 08.08.17	Dope - Die! Motherfucker! Die!
neekafat 08.08.17	Dis is not a rec list, is sad list
Papa Universe 08.08.17	I say this ain't rec list This that this that sad list This that breaking up with girlfriend, ain't had no rest list Yo I'm good don't pass that Hit me on my shoutbox You might have to back back 'Cause your shit is mad whack
neekafat 08.09.17	beatboxes
neekafat 08.09.17	There, that's better
BlushfulHippocrene 08.09.17	Aw, Neeka.
neekafat 08.09.17	Yeah it stings but who knows how it'll turn out yknow? I hope for the best and expect the worst
Joeman82 08.09.17	I'm in a long term relationship as well and I've had few scares about the relationship ending, so I can fathom how devastated you probably are. No matter what happens know someone is out there willing to care for you, you just have to find the right person.
neekafat 08.09.17	Thanks Joebro, I appreciate it mate I know, I just thought that I had
BlushfulHippocrene 08.09.17	So the rest of my comment didn't go through because I forgot to space a love heart. But be well, my man, things will turn out regardless of the outcome. I hope school and all are going well. Feel free to shoutbox if you ever need. < 3 !
butcherboy 08.09.17	chin up, neeka pal.. I hope it all works out.. if not, new beginnings can be wonderful..
Joeman82 08.09.17	Neeka, you always got dorks like me on this who like ya. If you ever need to talk my shoutbox is always open.
neekafat 08.09.17	Thank you all so much I felt really silly about posting this but now I know it was a good idea, I'll be sure to hit you guys up if things start feeling worse. Love all you sputbros < 3
neekafat 08.09.17	She says she loves me but I just can't fathom what's going on
50iL 08.09.17	Some of the best advice I've ever been given is dont stress for something you can't keep from happening. For now, try to calm yourself down. Yknow I'm here if you need me.
BlushfulHippocrene 08.09.17	It'll be hard, man, and might even numb you a little. But even if things never quite make sense, in time it'll get better and clearer. I hope it works out, but I'm sorry if it doesn't. You'll get through it. Best of luck. Things will turn out.
Joeman82 08.09.17	Neeka she's probably torn between staying with you and trying to see if someone else is out there for her. She loves you, but also wants to explore other options. It's a weird ass paradox my girl once felt too. I'm just speculating though.
verdant 08.09.17	hope you're coping alright neeka! if you needa chat feel free to shoutbox me < 3
neekafat 08.09.17	@50, yeah man that's something I always try to live by and I'm doing my best thanks : ) @Blush, thanks dude you know I'll keep you in the loop if anything changes @Joe, that's probably not far off the mark tbh. I've felt the same honestly but I've gotten to the point where I just can't imagine not being by her side. Maybe that's unhealthy? Maybe this break will be good for me too
Drifter 08.09.17	I hope this works out for you buddy. You know I'm always here if ya wanna talk
neekafat 08.09.17	@Land, will do man, thanks! @Drifter, of course bro : ) You know, Sputnik may be full of assholes, but somehow I knew that you guys would make me feel better, thank you all
Drifter 08.09.17	:)
Joeman82 08.09.17	Dude that's not really unhealthy. It's obvious the relationship has been a big part of your life and I feel that same way in relationship too. It's a type of connection that is extremely hard to replicate.
neekafat 08.09.17	Yeah I've always fallen in love very deeply and in this relationship more than ever I'm young af tho still, and sometimes I forget that there will be others if this one can't work
Dedes 08.09.17	2 and a half years man that sucks, hope ya can pull through. Also if you haven't definitely listen to The Wonder Years "Suburbia I've Given You My All and You've Left Me With Nothing". Jamz are hard and heartfelt.
Joeman82 08.09.17	If you want so E M O J A M Z check out La Dispute's first album. It's fun stuff. I'd also recommend listen to more of that little band "Brand New", I've been jamming Daisy recently and having blast.
Drifter 08.09.17	There's a song called Last Letter by this guy named Livingston Taylor and its a 5/5/5/5/5/5/5/5 song so yeah id recommend it I suppose
neekafat 08.09.17	Will do, my bros, will do Daisy is fuckin' rad Joe, really underappreciated album glad you're enjoying :)
Drifter 08.09.17	That song I recd is low key one of the best songs of the 90's imo
neekafat 08.09.17	Haha I'll be sure to check it at work tomorrow
Joeman82 08.09.17	No matter what the result is for you bud just know you'll always have people interested in you on this dinosaur of a site haha.
neekafat 08.09.17	Lol I definitely appreciate it my dude
Drifter 08.09.17	:)
neekafat 08.09.17	She just texted me goodnight, good sign I think, definitely puts the pressure off a little haha
Drifter 08.09.17	Niceeee
dctarga 08.09.17	I was in an off/on deal for 8 years with 2 extra of me trying to holler basically. Best advice I got, just let people grow and figure things out at their own pace. Hopefully that includes you. Either way though, mutual respect and keeping it mature/cordial goes along way when it comes to people you actually care about and sustaing those relationships, whatever they may be. Not assuming that you aren't doing that now. Rather just saying don't let emotins get the best of ya no matter what ;) Hoping for the best!
neekafat 08.09.17	I hear you dude! It's been hard because we finished high school together but now go to college separately So we're trying to grow at our own pace and have been worried that we'd grow apart but I thought we were doing well until now
Metro0092 08.09.17	Who gives a fuck. 90% of women are lying, cheating sluts with nothing to offer anyway.
Papa Universe 08.09.17	Are you going through the same shit or what?
Snake. 08.09.17	"Who gives a fuck. 90% of women are lying, cheating sluts with nothing to offer anyway." she's just not that into you broooooo
neekafat 08.09.17	Poor metro
Conmaniac 08.10.17	): hang in there bud
neekafat 08.12.17	Update: Neek's A-OK everyone, at least for now. Me and the girl talked it out and while we're still having a hard time reconciling everything but we're gonna give it another shot Thanks for the love y'all :)
Drifter 08.12.17	Nice (:
Drifter 08.12.17	Did you ever check the song I recd
neekafat 08.12.17	Fuck dude forgot all about it with everything that was going on, throw it up in my shoutbox
guitarded_chuck 08.12.17	without reading thru the thread to see if it already been suggested- you need to break up with her cut contact, she'll come back eventually to some extent but it's more or less over and you will save yourself stress by just cutting her off yourself sooner than later
zaruyache 08.12.17	wth ignore chuck
Sinternet 08.12.17	yeah ignore chuck distance/reflection is good, honestly ive never had a relationship that long-term but surely youve hit points before in which youre too comfortable with her and youve not got anything new to say right? if so how did you deal with it then? too reignite a relationship you need new experiences and time to grow as a person without the other to keep it lively
neekafat 08.12.17	That's true sin! We're definitely going to be working on that now moving forward, that was a major problem, especially for her
neekafat 09.06.17	Da blues just keep on coming...
butcherboy 09.06.17	getting worse with your girl? or the same stuff as before starting to wear on you, neeka?
dctarga 09.06.17	Boo da blues
dctarga 09.06.17	I know you aren't looking for recs.....but Modest Mouse - Lives Just kind of seems to humble me when I'm feeling all down or "woe is me" type of way
neekafat 09.06.17	Yeah butch, we decided we aren't happy with the way things are between us now and that we've been spending so much time on each other that we're missing out on a lot of opportunities in life. At the same time we really got on the same level and decided we love each other too much to just break up, so we decided to take a month to focus on ourselves and just see where it takes us
neekafat 09.06.17	But we both decided that no matter where we ended up it'd be better than how we were being with each other, so I guess in the end it's a good thing
neekafat 09.06.17	@Dctarga I'll check it out man, been looking for an excuse to get into them lately haha
Satellite 09.06.17	you probably weren't necessarily looking for advice, but... "I don't think it'll last much longer" ...once you start thinking like this it's as good as over, dude. you're basically already exploring free agency at this point. there aren't many things shittier than being unhappy in a relationship. hopefully things turn around for you. stay strong dude.
butcherboy 09.06.17	it is a good thing, neeka.. feels like shit right now because you're staring down a bit of a road of recovery and reneweal, but trust me, if you guys were smart and loving enough to actually chat all this out like civilized folk, that already puts you both above most others.. it'll all right itself, one way or another.. has no choice but to..
neekafat 09.06.17	Thanks Sat, that was a comment from an angstier me a few weeks back but now I'm a bit more tempered in my views haha And yeah butcher, it felt so good just to talk to her without anything but love and concern and i think we'll figure it out just fine. Even if we aren't right for each other now, maybe we will be again someday, who knows?
Drifter 09.06.17	😡
neekafat 09.06.17	?
MarsKid 09.06.17	I feel you dude. Let's jam some sad shit.
neekafat 09.06.17	Always Mars < 3
MarsKid 09.06.17	Went through something very similar so I hope it manages to work out my man, keep your head up
neekafat 09.06.17	Thanks bro, I appreciate it so much
someguest 09.06.17	give her a copy of 15 and tell her "it's the last Load of mine you'll ever be taking"
neekafat 09.06.17	Honestly not the worst idea
Drifter 09.06.17	"?" Its a sad face
RobertZDar 09.06.17	well you could've been clearer
Lord(e)Po)))ts 09.06.17	Ok but how old are u neek
neekafat 09.06.17	Haha Pots that's besides the point, I know I'm young and it might not end up being important in the grand scheme of my life, but it's important now